Angel 3: All about Samuel Ng (Twin B) : 27 Oct - 28 Oct 2015

Samuel, my third born, the only one out of the 3, with a birth certificate, and well,  death certificate too.

The one who gave us joy, even if only for 1 day.
Can still recall the gladness and the thoughts i have, when knowing he survive, despite being in NICU ("at least there's one.. at least there's hope.. at last, i'm a mom, physically")

But the moment i was told he is gone, i had totally broke down.
("Why, why even you have choose to forsake your mummy...?)

The heartache, the pains... no one.. no one can understand.
even though I have Joash now, i can still remember so vividly... that scene.. and i don't think i will ever forget.

Even though i know i will get to see him in heaven one day, the pain still linger.
This is something Eben don't know (but i believe he himself felt the pain too)

He was the active one, moving and kicking me, while Sammi always gently nudged.

He resembled Eben the most, down to Eben's birthmark shape!
He had Eben's face shape too, as well as the eyebrows.

My first son...

Mummy still missing you lots, and yes, when Joash is older, will definitely show your picture to him okay?